Almost certain failure, but I feel ok

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Got some feedback. There is skill gap btw what I have and what is required for the job.

This is bad, meaning most likely an improvement program and potential exit afterwards.

Funny how things turn out.

I was so sure that this job would be the perfect new beginning for me and I went all in from Day 1.

But it is what is it.

Funny how quickly people realize their limits.

I always believed that I could do any job given the opportunity.

Now it seems that I have reached my ceiling. And that ceiling is not even high.

But I wont just accept it. I knew all along that one failure would not mean the end of the world.

I am not giving up. I will keep going and push that ceiling, here or not, one way or another.

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But what feels strange is that I feel ok.

If this happened a few years back, I would have done below two things, probably repeatedly.

  1. Blaming myself to death

But I had none of that this time.

I still keep trying after getting the feedback, learning everything I could, but not too hard.

I still express my hope and commitment to make it work, but only as what it is — I can be useful to the firm if I make it, not trying to impress anyone by pledging myself to their causes.

I still care about the results, but not too much to disturb my inner peace.

I think this is growth.

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What happens next is out of my hand.

I can only try my best for the next few weeks — this should be good enough for me.



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